it's been forever and a day since i updated this.. mostly because i couldn't get logged in and all of a sudden my password just decided to work ... anyway, so many updates

i looked back over all my entries.. i'm sorry i was so sad. after march, this has been the happiest i've ever been in my life. i'm so happy to finally have things in order. and all up until last week, everything has been amazing. this past week or so has been rough. everything seems to be going wrong... but i'm still happy, don't get me wrong.. just down in the dumps a little.

i'm fucking up again with skewl.. i wish i could just fuck ecology in the asshole cuz i hate it so much. Joel committed suicide last week and that nearly killed me. Rest in peace, buddy! I love you! just everything has been shitty.. but we're all making it through

anyway, updates. as seen last time in my entries, i was still very much hung up on adrien for some reason. thank gawd everything is okay with him now. he started dating eliza a little after i wrote my last entry and then him and i only fought and fought more and ended up with her hating me a very large amount... turns out... we're best friends now.. me and adrien.. and me and eliza. she ended up living with me at home for a while and now she's my roomie up here at skewl.. granted, she basically lives with bauwow haha but that's a good development. i've been dating this boi for 3 months now and he's amazing. dan <3 it's been such a long time since i've really cared about someone and they cared about me back. and i've never been completely happy in a relatioship.. but here i am, and i love it. i really thought it was over when i met taylor because taylor still is one of the most amazing people i have ever met in my life.. but the summer screwed that up after we left skewl after the spring semester.. but then dan and i started hanging out again and it's all been gravy. i met him like a year and a half before that when i was dating adrien, go figure lol.

anyway... i got through last semester, summer classes, my first real job!, and now this semester. i can't wait till this semester is over though.. i really need to just bear down and pass everything so nicely. i'm hoping to be out of here by next semester.. next year at the latest cause i'm just not happy here.. anyway i'm deleting a lot of my deviations and shit and putting up new stuff soon.

much love! and <3